I should really be asleep right now but this is something I have to get off my chest.
Today was a huge day. Im on day 7 in a row, no time off and I have 5 more to go before I get time off. I am exhausted, running on empty, my body aches and all I want to do it sleep. But through all of this, there are little things that bring me so much joy.
I woke up this morning so excited to go to work. Beyond excited, and not even the shitty rubbish traffic could get me down. Work was hard. We got smashed. And even though there were moments that got me down, even though I was so tired running drink cartons back and forth, even though I burned my eyes doing buckets of onions and driving myself mad doing lettuce, cleaning the bathrooms and sweeping the floor - through it all, I am so happy with my job. I love it so much. And I get to spend the next two days with some of my favourite people in the world doing what truly makes me happy!
I am beyond excited to get out and smash photos tomorrow, rain, hail or shine! and I am so proud to see what I know I can produce.
My job may be taxing, it may suck at times, but though that all I truly love what I do. I love the people I work with and the experiences we have. I love my course. I love my life right now. I havent been happier in such a long time.
Everything feels right. After feeling so strained, so constricted, so devoid of life, so depressed for the past two years things have finally changed. I feel as carefree and joyful as I did before I ever met Jacob. I have never felt so alive! I have the friends around me now that I threw away so long ago, all for what? Some boy? I will never make that mistake again. I am back with the people who truly care about me and support me. I am back with the people who make me happy and I know now why nothing every worked out before.
If someone asked me right now what I needed in my life right now, or what I would change, I wouldnt have an answer for them. There is nothing in my life I would change, and nothing I need to make it better. Everything is so perfect right now.
I know that no one is likely to read this, but I had to get it off my chest. My life is so good right now, and I am dam proud of it!
how do you people do this like?? this took me three hours damn
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
Please come home ❤